When really miss Annie, when I really miss my mother; when i've fallen (or climbed) to my most vulnerable places, it those times that I can really feel her around me.
It's there. Tucked nicely away in my body memories. Where I know how to flinch away from pain, or relax in the sun. That's when I can most closely and literally feel my mother's pressence now.
While I weep, its like my muscles crying along to by remembering her enveloping me as ababy, or the feeling of her hugging me with love, or holding my hands in hers with those soft hands of hers. That's were I feel her...
...And as I can't stand the pain i'm trying to lift anymore - I clearly - very clearly - see her laughing and smile. She says with soft, strong, encouraging words - "let it go"-
Then she shows me how. She sits up straight. Holds her thumbs. Closes her eyes. Breathes in through her nose. holds it... and Exhales slowly out her mouth... .. then she's gone.
usually I wave or say "hi mom"
when I open my eyes and take that next breath, the moment feels clean and I can see clearly now.
(also of note: my face at this point is often, oddly, covered in rain.)
-the eldest son of Annie Raitt, Bay
Annie
Annie Raitt passed away peacefully with both her sons taking care of her on friday morning, December 21, 2007. She had idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis.
I made this page after recieving hundreds of emails and not responding to any of them.
Mom had so many amazing, spiritually ecclectic friends from so many far away places that I thought that making a central place to help organize, connect and share our grief might be nice.
please leave a comment so that others may read it.
-bay
ps: here's a flickr set I'll be updating with pics of her.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/spiraloid/sets/72157603522731766/
pps: If you have photos you'de like added, just send to me at bay.raitt@gmail.com
I made this page after recieving hundreds of emails and not responding to any of them.
Mom had so many amazing, spiritually ecclectic friends from so many far away places that I thought that making a central place to help organize, connect and share our grief might be nice.
please leave a comment so that others may read it.
-bay
ps: here's a flickr set I'll be updating with pics of her.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/spiraloid/sets/72157603522731766/
pps: If you have photos you'de like added, just send to me at bay.raitt@gmail.com
Memorial : Saturday, January 12th, 2008
We are going to have the memorial for Annie Raitt at the Space theatre in Ukiah, California Starting at 12 pm.
http://www.spaceperformingarts.org/contact.html
508 west Perkins Street,Ukiah CA 95482
(707) 462-9370
We are going to use the party planning site evite.com to manage how many people are coming, who should bring what, and how folks can carpool. the link to the evite is:
http://www.evite.com/app/publicUrl/FFWMZYXHWPCBUWWLWSAL/annieraitt
Lets make this a party to remember! Please tell anyone you know that might not have heard or who might not be online.
http://www.spaceperformingarts.org/contact.html
508 west Perkins Street,Ukiah CA 95482
(707) 462-9370
We are going to use the party planning site evite.com to manage how many people are coming, who should bring what, and how folks can carpool. the link to the evite is:
http://www.evite.com/app/publicUrl/FFWMZYXHWPCBUWWLWSAL/annieraitt
Lets make this a party to remember! Please tell anyone you know that might not have heard or who might not be online.
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